I could’ve lost everyone else. That’s how many people I was willing to lose. I would’ve thrown them all away for you. But maybe that was the issue. Maybe I needed to be strong enough to keep everyone close to me. Maybe I needed to be enough to keep you, close to me.
There was nothing to regret.
Indulging in sweets and sweats.
A time too short, a life lived with you.
Foolishly assuming I could move to someone new.
Falling asleep beside new eyes.
Wishing you were by my side.
Crying to sleep upon new moons.
To you, a promise of a life too soon.
Sleepless nights spent skin-to-skin.
Memories of tears and grins.
A familiar language of lust and sin.
One that I became so fluent in.