“Bleh.”

Bleh.
Eh.

Dirty plates, and soda cans
Held you close with guilty hands.
Lips that touched and stuck like glue.
Keep me up at night with thoughts of you.
Demon’s love, and velvet eyes.
Keep me safe within your lies.
Let me drop, please don’t let go.
Falling far, so very slow.

“Weep in Silence.”

Agonized, I clench my teeth
Bite my tongue, and keep me quiet.
For I can not shed a single tear.
As I took the burden of silence.

Tired, she sleeps alone.
She’s been here so long
And she’s come to hate the cold.
It leaves her numb, unfeeling at best.
A heart made of gold
Filled with love and unrest.
She stares at the night.
Hoping it’ll change.
Chase away thoughts of fright.
But tonight, again, alone, she sleeps.
With a heart, that’s grown cold, unfeeling at best.
Silently, she weeps, from the pain in her chest.

“I’m Just Here For Fun.”

Hold me here for conversation.
Don’t recognize a single face here.
World is spinning.
I’m feeling good, but they hate me.

Smoke enough to dull the pain.
Drink enough to keep me sane.
Faded and it’s only noon.
Reaper’s hands are coming soon.
Sad tunes on the stereo.
Take another sip, here we go.
World is spinning and it’s only noon.
Sick of hearing lonely tunes.
Hoping it’ll all be better soon.
Keep me sane with velvet rooms.
Red lights, and naked truths.

“Stories.”

They want a story?
I guess I’ll give them just that.

Another line, another page, another book.
Words could never measure just how long it took.
Take another step, just one more
Till we reach the end, brace the finish, till we score.
Sleepless nights, and hopeless hours
Filled with empty thoughts, and sweets turned sour.
Days spent flat upon the ground.
Watch the world passing by, without a sound.
And still, we get back up, we move, we run.
Just to let them know
Our story’s just begun.

“I’m Tired.”

You’re just gonna turn your back on everything you’ve worked for?
For what? For a pipe dream? For something that’ll never happen?
You’re just gonna throw it all away, for her? Of all people?

Of course.

Another night alone.
Keep me sane, this silence drones.
Get back up and write another
Dreams of being with each other.
Paranoia in my head
Demons in my stead
But you put it all to rest.
Bring me back and raise my higher.
The only one that I desire.
The one I want at night
Just to say, “I’m tired.”

“Self Care.”

What would you say,
If this was the last time you saw me?

Whiskey and Coke in a cold glass.
Smoke enough to let time pass.
Up awake at four A.M.
Wonder who I really am.
Can’t sleep, nights are cold.
Don’t know where I’ll go.
Close my eyes, but she’s still there.
Demons in my mind, I’m pulling out my hair.
Another shot, another smoke, drink until I’m gone.
Flip the switch and keep the lights on.
Close my eyes, yeah she’s still there.
Another drink, another smoke
Fill my head with self care.

“The Same Room.”

We’re such strange creatures.
We strive for so much more, we demand so much change
We’re always wanting for something different
And yet, we’re most comfortable with familiarity.

Promises made, in a bed for two.
A room made, for me and you.
The smell of cooking meals for two.
Replaced by broken dishes and midnight tunes.
Dust gathered on barely living lights.
Remind me of the days we used to fight.
Enough is enough.
You took your things, and left.
Leaving me with thoughts of you.
A bed, a meal, a room, made for two.
I hope, I wish, I want
To come back to the same old room.

“Comfortable with Normality.”

There’s always low points in life.
Mine are usually at four in the morning.
Staring at the ceiling.

Light another one, down another and another.
Dull the pain, keep me sane, far away from each other.
A thousand miles, a hundred feet, a couple passing moments.
Promises like glass, shattering when broken.
But we down another, and another, just to keep from one another.
Storms that rage with words that strike like thunder.
Walked away, packed our bags, said it’s best to separate.
Never mind the future that we planned to create.
Up awake, late nights, thinking of my passing whims.
Repressing thoughts of her and him.

“Passing Whims.”

Always, always
Just a little too late.

Strangers in the sand.
Dancing nights on land.
Stars up in the sky.
Only me and you tonight.
Dinner just for two.
Driving home with you.
Kiss your pretty face.
Asking if you’d stay.
Go ahead, step inside.
Keep me up all night.
Things change.
Wish they’d stay the same.
Go out on a limb.
Nothing more than toys
For your passing whims.